Feeling SAD !

Today it wasn't a nice day for me. Actually it started since last Monday. I was trapped in bad mood mode. Maybe the first reason that makes me to feel bad is I didn't see him for almost a month. He is the one that can fills my days n the one who can cheers me up when I'm down. I love him even though he is not yet mine. Even I have plenty of enemies that can be said to be his fans. I even don't understand what is inside his heart. Does he love me? or does he hate me? I can't find the answer, and I hate my current condition that made me really hard to move on. I'm really in a bad mood. Argghhhhh! Hate it!